I went all day without speaking to her And I drank Cabernet by the bottle and admired the artwork put on display Walking, observing, feeling an undeserved sense of soundness There was one painting that I was particularly fond of It was entitled "The Embrace" A faceless man in black and blue was pursuing a faceless woman in pink and white She shied away from him She was too bashful One blue arm attempted to comfort her from the world as she knew Or maybe from the uncertainties of the world that he imposed onto her Bloomed century plants envelop her completely And I stood there and pondered and drank more wine Then I thought, "She's going to become nonexistent just after becoming so beautiful." And I took another sip of my drink The only thing that existed in that moment were the paintings on the walls, the wine in my belly, and the associates that I went to the art show with For those hours that I was there, I was separated from reality Multiple calls were made soon after I returned to squadron Multiple calls were ignored I knew that I was in the wrong So I kept making attempts to reach her from a thousand miles away making myself look like an *** in the process It wasn't until the next morning that she contacted me All of her texts were short, dry, and cold I could tell that she was hurt So I called again, this time I could hear her voice "You're just an *******. You don't even care." I listen My stomached churned slightly from the guilt of knowing that she's not entirely wrong I could be so much better, but it's hard to fight against vices ingrained in your core Like instincts of self preservation Like fear Although I'm not always successful, I still try She resists me for a little while then succumbs to the pull of my world Then I remember the painting And I understood