Something is not right.
No something is very wrong.
I could once fall in love so easily like the rest
like I was falling in love for the first time over and over again.
But this has stopped.
I no longer trust.
nor believe I can love like that again.
I hate you for taking this away from me.
I never once truly believed in a future with anyone really
till you came along and changed me.
I believed every word you said
when you got on one knee and promised me a future
no the world.
how could I be so naive.
I keep shooting myself in the foot
and thinking of what ifs and what could of been.
If I had done something different.
So I can just stand here
but I cannot admire the view it is barricaded  
with thoughts of you.
I thought this aching pain would leave.
Would bleed from my soul until i was finally free.