you once were my addiction
necessary for survival,
a coping mechanism
to deal with my struggles

i thought i loved you
that you were my savior
but i couldn't see the truth
you were breaking me down

you cleared my head,
calmed me down
soothed my worries
helped me forget the world

but once you were gone,
it all came rushing back
and suddenly i was alone
and worse off than before

until i gave you up
quit you, stopped it all
ignored my cravings,
i deserved a better life

i was amazed to see
i really could live without you
you weren't keeping me alive
i was

but hard times came again
and i can't help but wonder
maybe I was wrong?
maybe I did need you?

no, I can't give in
you only want to ruin me
and i'm in control
i must resist, for my sake

i can conquer you
you'll never go away, but
i know now your deceit
and I'm vowing to stay sober