i'm being blamed for something i can't control

i can't stop bouncing my leg
i can't look you in the eyes when you speak to me
i can't stop my voice from shaking from shaking when you yell at me
i can't sleep at a normal time
i can't speak up when i'm being taken advantage of
i can't carry myself with the confidence you do
i can't do a lot of things, mom.

i can fake it all i want
i can say what you want to hear
i can push myself way harder than i need to
i can do too much and get you mad at me, again...

i just feel so restricted. albeit my own expectations or your strict hold on my collar; i just feel so restricted.