There are no words to describe all the pain I fknow that's not l inside.
I'm falling deeper into myself and it's getting harder to hide.

The daily facade of fake smiles and cheer,
Will soon be replaced by overwhelming grief and fear.

I tried to be strong for as long as I could,
But keeping it all in has taken it's toll, as I knew it would.

I feel like there's no end to this misery in sight,
Almost been 10 years now, I'm losing my will to fight.

That day from hell left everyone involved physically, mentally and emotionally scarred.
But the loss of one so young and dear to us all, left this entire family forever marred.

I feel my mind slipping a little further everyday,
I don't know how to stop it, or make these feelings go away.

It's almost like I'm being torn apart in two,  
I know what the right decision is, but I REALLY miss you!

I wonder if I just let go, and my mind slip free,
Will I get to be with you for all eternity?

I know that's not an option no matter how entice,
I couldn't do that to the ones I love cause they would pay the price.

So i guess I'll keep on trying, as hard as that may be
But please my darling angel boy, save a spot up there with you for me

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To my son Skyler Kane
RIP 07/2000 - 06/2003