I am bigger than you
Because I don't think that I am.
I'm trying so hard to let go.
I can look in the mirror now,
And see not my face, but his.
I don't want to be like him.
I don't want to hold
These insecurities he carried
When it was him that I loved.
Now I see here
This boy who is me, back then.
And I am he who was to afraid to love me.
I keep feeling that I'm ugly.
I don't want to be ugly.
Not now. Not when he is so beautiful
To me.
I pray for release
From this death within myself.