i sit here
with you
and wonder
really?

distractions
contradictions
anger fueled interactions
lame diction
distorted intentions

minds in foreign places
searching for love and companionship

whats the point?
why even bother?
let me choose
allow me the pleasure of indulging
neither (no one) seems to care anyway (eyether way)

pamper the needs
of those in my life
comfort
servitude
the duty of such altruism
what weights have been placed upon myself

its not such a bad thing
its the result of being adamant about the correction (fixing) of this life
this blunder of an existence

poor me
for thinking that i could...
well..
that..
i could change myself and in the process, change the world.