Dear Dad, I love you but you're not here. Zach and Kate has a dad who picks them up after school and who pushes the back of their bikes while they steer- Even Stephanie's Dad that lives away shows up more than you do; if you ever showed at all. It's not like you went across the world to fight or that you died in the prime of life. I believed you when you said you'll always be there. Yet you never really did plan on living with me forever? While I wasted every year wishing for you, waited everyday by the phone for a call, spent every minute daydreaming you'll surprise me by the steps of my door ready to make a new home with all of us together but you were spending every second of your life tending to children I've never seen before. Bad things don't happen without a reason. So it must be my fault... My punishment- Cause I'm mean to my little brother when his dad visits more Cause I bullied the dog mom bought, Cause I don't know who else can be blamed. If I'm good this time would you keep your promise and come home?