Im not at ease and I can't help it the thought keeps replaying in my head like a broken record forgetting is not the easiest thing to do and might not be the best either i don't want to breakdown i don't want to be weak it happens to everyone, and we all survive it i will be strong and i wont give up, i will stand up it was too intense, but i chose to ride a long now all i have to do is move on.