it was like an awkward handshake when i met k for the first time
in the movies we indulged in
characters stopped becoming characters and instead
became actors.
light came in through the windows
halfway opened every morning
in my mansion that sat on top of a hill where i indulged again
ketamine 310mg
sherlock holmes woke me up sprawled out on my sofa in my third living room
examining my crushed veins
no longer virgins
i felt guilty but the heat waves running through my intestines guided me into a feeling of eternity
foreshadowed by external light
i felt complete bliss and unity
inside my hands held the key to the universal pull.
i believe i made decisions that night that are rooted in my subconscious for my future
i was struggling to make these decisions on my own
but i wasn’t on my own
and i never will be again,
because i’ve fallen in love.