They said that time will heal
But it's been forever, why my heart still ill?
They also said someday I'll find someone better
Maybe thats why i keep comparing everyone with her.
They said, someday I'll be happy again
This air of melancholy be blown away and
I will somehow find my zen.

But that day is not today.
Today, my head is still on my arm,
Hugging my knee close to my chest,
Snugging at the corner of my room,
Still sobbing while asking myself
"Is this really for the best?"

I wrote her a letter, But it never finished.
I don't plan to either, because I'm not sure what will it accomplish.

"You are my siren, you drew me in
With a voice like an angel and the softest skin
Your eyes shine like diamonds and your smile melts my heart
We're like the star and the moon, and nothing could tear us apart"

That's what i wrote, and just let me say
Even though the last line not true, but I'll never throw it away.

"You make me smile when no one else can
It just makes me happy to be your man
But it hurts me deeply that we have to be apart
I thought we would last, but we need to do this, sweetheart"

I could not end it, could not write a "goodbye",
Not with the ink, just the thought of it could make me cry.

AS 73/19