Anxiety sets in,
Into my body,
Deep in my stomach,
Giving me the shakes,
Nausea,
Headache,
Eye pain.

I hurt.
My hip,
My feet,
My neck.

I feel stuck and alone.
Haven't been able to get out of my funk today.

I'm afraid to go out alone,
Afraid of my thoughts,
No music to play to drown out the darkness.

I feel paranoid.
I feel sickness in my soul today.
Loneliness.
I feel that I don't matter.
I wonder why I am alone so much.

Love,
Acceptance,
Support,
Understanding,
Spirituality,
Mu­sic,
Dancing,
Painting,
Singing.

Watching the sky,
Looking at the stars.

I need to open up,
And let my people in.

I need more structure,
And fulfillment.
To be appreciated,
And heard,
Understood with compassion,
Share my love,
Open my heart,
Feel safe and cherished.