Im hurting in deep dark crevices
Their voices at varied volumes.
I scream stop. Please stop
Sometimes until I fall asleep.
They sparingly listen when I angrily tell them to shut up
They throb as reminders force their way into my head
I’m ok.
I’m ok when they stop.
I’m ok when I’m with you.
I’m scared of the moments I’m left alone
Your voice speaks louder
You remind them I am loved
But beneath you they continue to whisper
Reminding me of what limitations that have been set on me.
Who and when I cannot love
Setting timers and dates
Taunting Expirations
You unknowingly have joined them
Reinforcing how long I can love you
I’m silently screaming
Trying to make my voice louder
Remind you that I love you
Stop. Please stop.
I’m ok when I’m with you