was i ever there were you ever here
or was it but a dream conjured by empty fear
secrets bleed through the walls
like footsteps echo through silent halls
I tried so hard to make this something more
yet we're still slipping, slipping through the cracks in this old floor
I wonder if He'll recognize this temple upon return
if not full of holes from worms
then reduced to ash from when it burned
and if its but a husk but a hollow empty shell
why does every single scratch, scar an eternalized tale
if this truly is the temple
perhaps I'll etch character in the walls
so that upon but a glance any newcomer can know it all
i dreamt of you the night I died
somehow we shared a whole lifetime
eternity is in the mind
relative is all our time
was i ever really there
were you ever even here
will we ever get whats fair
did we live our lives in fear
I heard the words you never spoke
Read the tomes you never wrote
If you walk away now I will fold my hand
But if you choose to stay the wager stands
If these walls could talk the things they'd say
Imagine the promises they've witnessed break
Oh the ridiculous things we pray
I wonder if its something to do with the snake
temptation yields resistance or defeat but rarely both
I'll try my very best but I'll make no oath
if we retain our humanity
we sacrifice divinity
free will free will how I've missed you so
yet the books say you died long ago
she asked me why
why are you always thinking
why can't you rest your weary head
I asked her why
why she was always drinking
but she never said, no she never said
we felt the divide we felt the separation
I drifted from her side she sank to resignation
I've lost all control here I've lost it all
you never had it don't you know dear
just let the chips fall
you can never run fast enough to escape the truth
maybe if you slow down it will blaze right past you
the most intense pains lacking longevity are the ones that we can bare
but the dull aches lasting eternity cause us to pull out our hair
I wrote you my secrets but you never read them
I told you my regrets but you never listened
I'm trying harder now I'm trying harder than before
We're sinking deeper now, we're sinking deeper through the floor.
You turn your back on me
You leave me empty and ashamed
You turn your back on me
Still somehow I feel I'm to blame
I'm everything you always wanted to see
I'm everything I never wanted to be
I'm everything, everything but me
I'm tired of breaking down I just can't do it anymore
You sinking deeper now sinking deeper through the floor