was i ever there were you ever here

or was it but a dream conjured by empty fear

secrets bleed through the walls

like footsteps echo through silent halls

I tried so hard to make this something more

yet we're still slipping, slipping through the cracks in this old floor




I wonder if He'll recognize this temple upon return

if not full of holes from worms

then reduced to ash from when it burned

and if its but a husk but a hollow empty shell

why does every single scratch, scar an eternalized tale

if this truly is the temple

perhaps I'll etch character in the walls

so that upon but a glance any newcomer can know it all




i dreamt of you the night I  died

somehow we shared a whole lifetime

eternity is in the mind

relative is all our time



was i ever really there

were you ever even here

will we ever get whats fair

did we live our lives in fear



I heard the words you never spoke

Read the tomes you never wrote

If you walk away now I will fold my hand

But if you choose to stay the wager stands



If these walls could talk the things they'd say

Imagine the promises they've witnessed break

Oh the ridiculous things we pray

I wonder if its something to do with the snake



temptation yields resistance or defeat but rarely both

I'll try my very best but I'll make no oath

if we retain our humanity

we sacrifice divinity

free will free will how I've missed you so

yet the books say you died long ago



she asked me why

why are you always thinking

why can't you rest your weary head

I asked her why

why she was always drinking

but she never said, no she never said



we felt the divide we felt the separation

I drifted from her side she sank to resignation

I've lost all control here I've lost it all

you never had it don't you know dear

just let the chips fall



you can never run fast enough to escape the truth

maybe if you slow down it will blaze right past you

the most intense pains lacking longevity are the ones that we can bare

but the dull aches lasting eternity cause us to pull out our hair



I wrote you my secrets but you never read them

I told you my regrets but you never listened



I'm trying harder now I'm trying harder than before

We're sinking deeper now, we're sinking deeper through the floor.



You turn your back on me

You leave me empty and ashamed

You turn your back on me

Still somehow I feel I'm to blame



I'm everything you always wanted to see

I'm everything I never wanted to be

I'm everything, everything but me



I'm tired of breaking down I just can't do it anymore

You sinking deeper now sinking deeper through the floor