i lie awake and i reflect on my affection somewhat consciously...
though i write and breathe with the same, flowing alertness, my thoughts, however, are not as graceful...
i find you somewhere within this maze, with its throbbing walls and musty confusion to which i find no end. at every turn, i falter and where most routes are chosen, i find i'm becoming better acquainted with the ground:
it's endless, senseless detail, lack of order. we have our similarities, he and i... though, as i walk upon him he ages, as do i, and in the lapse of time we only grow closer usually by falling and leaving our mark behind.
this is my journey to you, this is my journey through you: may they both be led happily and in the same way, end, though all the while, happiness being knowing that it never does