I feel like,
I have broken up with him in my mind.
Like,
if it was all on fantasy that turned real,
he would be asking for me back for the seventh time
And wondering how much more he could have torn it all up.
And even though every other time I told him that I couldn't go back to him,
After what he did,
He still comes back for more.
Because he loves me and he believes that he can win me back.
And I loved him once and we were happy,
And it was a masterpiece.