I clean wounds with animal spit so I inherit a lust to escape human capture. But what happens is I take in their power of blind loyalty and approach the incarcerator wielding the softest gun. I fall for boys who teach me how to mend my anomalies, and when I'm renewed, they find I'm not damaged enough to keep fixing. So I'm free but I miss prison. I miss following the cowbell that leads me home. I forget the past it took to crumble me. My own shadow haunts me when I step into the light. So I hide in dark places to keep him out of sight.