i sit here and i wonder what it is about you that draws me in
the world looks at you as a failure
one who couldnt survive against the odds
but the only answer i have been able to come up with for the burning passion i have for you is that its simply an obsession
a dark obsession that i cant seem to let go of but yet is hard for me to completely hold on to
I try my best to let go of you and let you live life how you choose
but the thought of living life more like existing without you is a nightmare
One i choose not to meet for as long as i can fight it
But soon time will be no longer present
And i will have to say goodbye
The last goodbye
the one i fear the most
I have always hoped this day would never come
But i know that it surely will
And as you will go on living not a tear to shed
I will be left broken and unwhole drowning in my tears and running from my fears
But the difference now will be that i will no longer have you to run to for comfort and some peace of mind
Just existing living off of instinct and hoping tomorrow will never come