whenever i start something, i always hear from loved ones
all the negatives about it.
after listening to them, i tell myself that i won't let myself
be like all the bad things in what i want to do.
i won't let myself fall into the hole of wanting to be like everyone else
before i even realize that i want to.
eventually i realize that people don't want my opinion.
they want to see the same thing
over
and
over
and
over
again.
it's appealing to see new names next to it.
i don't have enough self confidence to stand for what i want to do.
i have needed to believe in myself for a long time now,
maybe my entire life.
before recently, i didn't need to answer the question
"how much am i worth"
because before i knew it there was an auction.
i'm for sale.
people are looking at me.
and the auctioneer's numbers keep getting
smaller
and
smaller
and
smaller.
i'm taking a stand.
i'm not for sale.
if you want me, i will give you all i am,
but only if you do the same.