I  sometimes wonder, am
I the only one to see
That there's a monster who lives
on the inside of me?
One who tends to only grow
stronger with the passing of years
steadily setting a course
straight towards my fears
He wants for nothing
but destruction & pain
Constantly tearing apart
everything that I gain
So such is my fate
to end up alone
Trapped in a mind
that's too far gone
It's slowly deteriorating
like infected with cancer
How do I **** him?
Do you know the answer?
Please don't think it's funny
like I'm telling a joke
Cause I'm caught in a war
and loosing all hope.

Lord; these thoughts that
I harbor-cant be on my own
and no way to turn back
For the chances I've blown
Here I am,again
I'm caught in a rut
and the losses I've took
Are a shot to the gut
so maybe its time
To face the man in the mirror
put this monster to sleep
and see things more clearly
Forget pointing fingers,and
the one who's to blame
pick myself from the rut
and wash off the shame
stop looking to others
I must stand on my feet
and repent of this battle
I dare not repeat!
I'll never learn nuttin'
if unable to grow
cause we fill our own plate
with the seed that we sow
so if you truly desire
a family & home
Then let go of this Monster
and stand on your own