This sadness in my heart does it make you want to run
Am I more than you bargained for
Should I be easier to love
Questions of doubt cling to my insecurities like the devils on my back
Like a manipulative attack pointing out everything I lack
Bringing back the dark thoughts that leave me with an ache in my heart
What is this world I’m only observing
The hurt I have been through was I deserving
As the thoughts play in my mind I feel as if I’ve gone back in time to the way that I felt  
Heart sinking to my stomach with no way out
Makes me feel sick to think about
But here I am
The remnants of the damage make it hard to find myself  
push it to the side and see the girl I always knew was there
hiding in fear and confusion
how could I know how to love me when it was supposed to be taught by you
Someone who made me feel disgusting and used  
I want to hate you I want to hate them all