as the months passes by
i could feel my heart ache
searching for love in someone’s hands
they give me a handful of lies.

why do i keep hurting?
why didn’t they notice?
am i someone who's hated by everyone?
tell me is there something wrong with me.

i fell asleep as soon as i kept asking these questions of mine
and maybe that's for the better that i would close my eyes
blinded by their kindness that didn't seem to be true
forever in a state believing in people who threw me away.

found love in a painful way
found love that terribly hurts
found love that kills me
my love in november is truly a bliss.