Here’s to the boy I’ll always secretly love
To the boy who carried my love like a dove
So soft and flowing
Made me feel as if i were glowing
To the boy who’s smile I’ll never forget
And to our memories I’ll never regret
To the boy I loved
My love for you was never a toy
Everything I said and did had meaning and joy
But you were the commotion...
You brought joy to my life on tough days
which I’d begged to stay when the mayhem came
Except you where the commotion that left me destroyed
Feeling like a void
Unpleasant unhappy and unsatisfied
I promise you I cried
I hurt badly and kept it all a secret
I was ashamed
Embarrassed
The stalker
Is what you called me
The boy I love left me with shattered tiny pieces
Unaware of how to fix them
I was numb
For so many years
I hid myself away
To the boy I loved
I forgive you