I was born at midnight to a full moon, the stars engulfing the sky. The fourth Wednesday of the month, two days after spring, in a run-down hospital somewhere in Kathmandu
I don’t remember much What I do I wish I didn’t My memories like shattered glass, bits and pieces scattered across my mind.
Our house Mud walls and straw roofs Cold hard floors, blankets laid out in a neat pile Pillows made of leftover straw and crumbled paper Sound of crickets At night Like a lullaby
Long hours alone, the feeling of isolation before I knew what it was.
Long walks to school, and worn-out shoes that we could never afford to replace. The stick at the corner of the classroom, glaring at us, mocking us, “Who do I get to hit today”
Screaming and yelling, Heavy words that leave a mark “If I wasn’t tied down to you” “I swear to god I’ll leave you” “After everything I’ve done for you”
Leading me down this path of self- destruction Stuck in prison of self-loathing A cycle of abuse that I put myself through Guilting myself into taking on more than I can handle “After everything they’ve done for me”