So I set off again
Thinking I could find something this time
A tangible piece
Of a God I wish I knew.
Running barefoot along
With soles scraping pavements
Marking borders of cities I had never dreamed I’d go.

And I remember that time
When I pretended you were there
And I told you my dreams
As if the world were mine.
And I spun the stars with my words and scars
And I ordered the birds,
“Teach me to sing”
From behind such slender bars.

As I hopped, skipped and jumped afar
I thought to myself “this is where we are”
I dodged those dreams that I began to fear.
And as I held my breath and my arms in a shield
I swore to some God
I thought I saw you there.

We sat in the rain and watched newspaper wilt
And puddles flooded our shoes.
And as you said
“You are strong”
I spat back
“You are wrong”
And saw another dream float down that ocean road.

I ran home that day
And rubbed my toes
Callused and broken, but there.
Took a look in my walls
And heard you call,
“Somewhere you are there.”

And you told me to go
And to chase those cars
And follow those paved walkways.
You said, “Remember to walk, but never to run
Except when the fear
Tugs back at your sleeve.
And when those nights come back
And the rain pours on
Remember to think of those dreams;
The little pieces of me you always pleaded to see.
Keep them alive for me.”

I took the words I given that night
And threw them into my books.
I stained my heart with the poem
And beat the words in my drum
While I ran beyond:
Beyond those cities and cars
To moons and stars
Beyond all the dreams
And wishful things
I dreamt I’d touch
But never believed
And took them home

To you.