Dear life,
Can we start over?
Let’s go back to the beginning
Before this shit ever happened?
Before my life became an
Endless rollercoaster
Before I’m constantly
Walking in a pit of quick sand.
Let’s start over
And go back to the time
When I’m never “tired”
Every...single...fucking...day.
Before I needed IV black coffee
Before I needed IV fluids
Constantly because I’m tired
Physically, emotionally, mentally
Before all these feelings of
Hopelessness, helplessness
Worthlessness
Consumed my heart every day
Before all the thoughts of
Su...
Sui...
Calling it a night
Before all the thoughts of
Saying good night forever
Before I put my hands up
And throw the towel in
Because I’m tired of life
I’m fed up,
I’m overwhelmed,
And I’m over it.
We’re through...
Our relationship is over...
It’s not me...
It’s definitely you.
Can we start over life?
And go back to where
Every thing was simple again?
Where I was smiling and
Laughing more often than now?
Where nothing in the world can
Bring me down mentally, emotionally,
Because I’m in my safe, happy place.
Can we go back to where
Life was simpler, easier than it is now
Where I had no worries or concerns
And I just live for the moments?
Dear life,
Can we pretend that none
Of this ever happened
And start over?