Oct 2019
If they caught you...
if they caught you,
maybe i would allow myself to feel.
I'd truly be brave instead of faking how i feel.
Maybe when I see a red truck I wouldn't
flinch at the thought of you.
Maybe I'd still know my family,
but you took that away didn't you?
Maybe when people joked about ****
I wouldn't think back to that day.
Or when an older man that looks like you,
asks about my day I wouldn't stare off and say
go away.
Maybe I'd feel normal the way others do.
Or maybe I wouldn't blame myself
for the way I've been treated,
Would you ?
if they caught you,
maybe i would allow myself to feel.
I'd truly be brave instead of faking how i feel.
Maybe when I see a red truck I wouldn't
flinch at the thought of you.
Maybe I'd still know my family,
but you took that away didn't you?
Maybe when people joked about ****
I wouldn't think back to that day.
Or when an older man that looks like you,
asks about my day I wouldn't stare off and say
go away.
Maybe I'd feel normal the way others do.
Or maybe I wouldn't blame myself
for the way I've been treated,
Would you ?
I've been working on coping with what happened to me for almost two years. When I finally spoke out it backfired, he had found a way to convince the one person that i needed to believe me that I wanted this. So that person abandoned me and chose him. I had learned the cruelty of the world but was left to discover the good in it for myself. I lost a lot because I needed to tell someone what had happened. I couldn't play his games anymore.
So now,
after almost two years, I can finally say...
I am going to be okay.
So now,
after almost two years, I can finally say...
I am going to be okay.
