The **** is this emotion I’ve been stuck between devotion And suicidal rotation It’s time to get my head stuck on straight No more dwelling in self hate I’m trynna live in this debate Now I know what I want and imma ******* take it Can’t try to contain this Life hasn’t been a ride But today I really felt alive At one point I wanted to die But then I thought Time ain’t in my side And you needa know you the only one I’d die for I’d live for Time to click off Needa relay these thoughts It’s love not a lost contour On the map of life Everyone asking if im alright I just keep saying I am until I forget Or I actually give a **** They say I don’t care Truth is I care Only about a few this ain’t ******* new You don’t understand and I can’t convey this through I really ******* love you I can’t handle all the moods I’m happy and I don’t understand Like what the **** is this I’m gonna take a **** On the roof we call life Time to actually give it a try You don’t know what it’s like I’m constantly stuck smoking outside Becayse I don’t know how to cope With these thoughts, I’d rather hang from a rope Everybody saying that I’m dope Cause I sold out shows Now I’m really ******* ****** Needs head on home But I’m there and I feel so alone I’m in a different zone