They Know
All the secrets that i kept within
The bombshell that would destroy my peace and let chaos reign supreme
They wish as much as i that this was all but a silly dream
But this is far from imaginary
Will i have children?
Will I marry?
Like my father will i fail in life?
Is this hereditary?
I'm still young right? I could make mistakes
But not the mistakes that will attribute to me throwing my entire life away
Was High-School Useless?
Was starting college a waist?
Because all iv'e brought to those i care about is worry and emotional pain
I'm a caring guy
I should've just stayed in my lane
Now i wonder if i will go to prison and come out walking with the support of a cane
We all have a that phase where we think life is a game
Its not a game when you have everything to lose and nothing to gain.