for a second i forget,
amending all of my regret.
upset that we would never make,
that dallas trip, we won't attempt.
i wish that i could know myself,
i wish my family knew,
how hard it is for me to breathe.
i wish i woke and wasn't me.
i wish you knew how much,
i wasn't me.
our love was my attempt to try,
but in the end i lived a lie.
i loved you more than my own life.
each breath i take, I'm not alive.
i prayed to god with nothing left.
he told me 'take a drink then drive'.
my friends say hey, I don't reply.
i struggle just to get a job in time.
i sit on floors and fake sublime.
i breathe then break, i say I'm fine.
i wish that i could be more kind.