today,
i wore it again
and people complimented me
they say red is my color
and it suits me.
today,
it's too thick and dark
did i overapply
no, it's the right amount
just enough
to make them think
i'm fine.
today,
i look at myself
in the mirror,
and they're right
red shines on me,
so i applied
another layer,
and another
until my lips felt too thick,
but my eyes still see
the scars beneath it.