or not? I told him to forget
about it for today. But I’m not sure
he’ll get the message right away. And if
he does should he ignore it? Then I might

think he doesn’t care. Even if he listens
to me because I told him directly that I just
wanted to keep to myself. Will I blame him
if he does? Listen to me that is, and not go forward

with the call. Am I making any sense
at all? You see I might subconsciously be testing
him without realizing at this precise moment. He’s
****** no matter what he does. He knows this

because he knows me. And I am impossible
to say the least. Right now I do not yet know
which way it will go, only that I’ll probably be
upset either way. And I might regret telling him

not to bother today.