Mar 2013
Blinding bright lights and,screeching sirens. Loud yelling voices,the feel of tightening handcuffs. Back seat of a cop car,I'm thinking this is where my time is going to end.
Thinking about my baby girl, and her soft blue eyes. What does she think,what's
On her little mind? A little angel who is so warm hearted and innocent,I hope to
God I never have to hear her cries..knowing I'm the cause of the pain she's
Feeling inside.
How could I do this to her...to me....to us!? Causing feelings of broken trust, choosing to deface a
Love, feeling trapped..choosing to be on the devils side.
How Can I break loose from this,one of a kind,truly,****** up,love twisted homicide!?
Im not. It's not. It's never giving me up,no matter how hard I sincerely try. It feels
Impossible,while It literally feels of being squeezed,in the grips of an addicting,
Controlling,unforgiving,relentless nightmare.
With the monster.
It hurts to say,that even the strongest feel of genuine love,isn't even enough to save me.
I'm addicted to this love thing,and even I know,it will never fade nor leave my memory
For good,and stay away once and for all.
Trying to be free is not an option. It's like they say,and everyone has heard it before...once
You try it,that's the end of what once was normal. This lifestyle is now normal. For me it
Was love at first taste.
Now I'm willingly a prisoner,drowning in a forever life of sorrow.
Unforgettable,and unable to forgive. I'm forever stuck with overwhelming hunger pains,
Hopefully one day I will no longer fiend for our dangerous,killing love, but for now the soul
Of a once beautiful,pure human being...has been possessed,and the soul has become dark,and
Cold..keeping faith that one day,I'll be strong enough to walk away.
I will never feel the same as i did before. the damage has been done, theres no changing that.
I hope someday I can feel relief,and feel love again. Not happening as long as the monster has
A hold of me.
TILL **** DO US PART.
Thinking about my baby girl, and her soft blue eyes. What does she think,what's
On her little mind? A little angel who is so warm hearted and innocent,I hope to
God I never have to hear her cries..knowing I'm the cause of the pain she's
Feeling inside.
How could I do this to her...to me....to us!? Causing feelings of broken trust, choosing to deface a
Love, feeling trapped..choosing to be on the devils side.
How Can I break loose from this,one of a kind,truly,****** up,love twisted homicide!?
Im not. It's not. It's never giving me up,no matter how hard I sincerely try. It feels
Impossible,while It literally feels of being squeezed,in the grips of an addicting,
Controlling,unforgiving,relentless nightmare.
With the monster.
It hurts to say,that even the strongest feel of genuine love,isn't even enough to save me.
I'm addicted to this love thing,and even I know,it will never fade nor leave my memory
For good,and stay away once and for all.
Trying to be free is not an option. It's like they say,and everyone has heard it before...once
You try it,that's the end of what once was normal. This lifestyle is now normal. For me it
Was love at first taste.
Now I'm willingly a prisoner,drowning in a forever life of sorrow.
Unforgettable,and unable to forgive. I'm forever stuck with overwhelming hunger pains,
Hopefully one day I will no longer fiend for our dangerous,killing love, but for now the soul
Of a once beautiful,pure human being...has been possessed,and the soul has become dark,and
Cold..keeping faith that one day,I'll be strong enough to walk away.
I will never feel the same as i did before. the damage has been done, theres no changing that.
I hope someday I can feel relief,and feel love again. Not happening as long as the monster has
A hold of me.
TILL **** DO US PART.
