I always have gotten kicked down
I have always been talked about
But each time I got on back up
Proved each naysayer wrong
Showing how strong I really was

But I’m afraid that this time
I won’t win this continuous fight
My life’s been at a complete stop
For the longest period ever now
And on how, I don’t see any way out

I swear there is no hate or resentment
I watch through others what I’m missing
The love and fun in my home states sun
Living to the full, I don’t have the control
I can feel my crying, entrapped soul dying  

It must be better than feeling stuck
Am I a curse or is it just random “luck?”
I would like to keep hold of some hope
But I feel as if I’m just in someone’s joke
Am I strong enough to release the cuffs