Cover up, empty ***.
Feelings down, thoughts up.
Wanted to cry, but must be a man.
Looked around, no hope found .
Phone ringing, mum calling ,
Hello mom are you okay??
Son I'm starving nothing to eat (crying) .
It's ok mom, I will get back to you soon. I will send you some money  and don't cry mom I said , with my eyes covered in tears.
Actually I have not even a penny, I'm  cashless. Totally broke.
The worst feeling I have evered had is telling my mom it's going to be okay, when nothing seems to be okay and no hope of it getting okay or better  soon. To cut the long story short
I'm  so happy mama is happy now
Because her dogs eat five times a day