I explained
a long time ago
the feelings I don't
have for you.

Do you need a constant reminder
of the lack, the space, the cold
air that lines our skin as it touches,
my turned back, my closed eyes,
do you need me to spell
it out for you?

What would make
the idea sink into
your thick skull?
A four letter word to describe
how lonely people fall in love
and what they do to
get through
the night.

You never hear me
when I say my heart
does not beat
in your arms.