I remember your face, your laugh,
sitting on a park bench and telling jokes,
feeling like the whole world finally
made sense.
The sweat drizzled down my back and that stutter…
but you didn’t mind.
I dare you, I dare you to speak my name
when my affection wasn’t enough for you,
and that’s all I wanted,
to love you,
to look into your eyes and know you felt it too,
to hold you like a child, so innocent, so pure.
Your laughter will stay with me forever
like the songs I listen to on repeat
always reminding me of my guilt,
my pettiness.
But you my friend,
I want you to have everything.
You deserved better,  and I just wasn't enough for you.