I can never forget how you made me feel, you made me feel
hurt, abandoned, rejected.
That kind of heartache drove me to anger. I wanted to hate you. And not just what you did
to me, I wanted to hate everything about you.
But that is not me.
The agony of hating would have been worse than that caused by loving someone who didnt
love in return. I couldn't do it.
I would rather be alone and loving you, than alone and hating you.
I am a lover not a hater.
I am also a fighter, and I fight for what I love and I loved you.
Thats why I fought so hard.
I fought to keep you.
To save us.
To save what I thought was worth it.
Because our love, however hopeless and impossible it was.
Was everything to me.
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