Thoughts racing like F1,
Heart melting like ice cream
On a hot summer afternoon,
Mind overwhelmed like
A first kiss.
Thoughts of hopeless,
Helplessness,
Worthlessness
Racing through my head
And all I can say is...
I’m...
Fine.
I’m fine.
I don’t know what else
To say.
My heart’s pounding outta
My chest,
Tears filling my eyes
And flowing down my face
And all I can say is...
I’m...
Fine.
I’m fine.
I’m fucking...
Fine.
Staring blanking ahead
As everyone and everything
Speed past me
As I struggle to just
Get by.
I’m struggling every second
Just to understand why
I’m even here this very second
Because deep down I know
I’ll never survive alone because
I’m...
Fine?
I’m fine?
Am I really fine?
Fuck that.
I tell my friends and family
That I’m “fine”
But deep down in my heart
And in my soul
I’m crying.
I’m drowning every second
And I can’t even swim
With raw emotions and thoughts
Of nothing by negativity
That I throw my hands up
And say I’m done with this shit.
I tell y’all that I’m fine
But I’m screaming at
The top of my lungs
Someone save me!
Someone fucking save me
From this endless nightmare
That is taking control of me
Emotionally, mentally,
Socially.
My life is a giant pit of
Quicksand
And no matter how hard
I try to fight it and escape
I sink deeper and deeper
Until I can’t breathe anymore
And I suffocate by all my raw
Emotions and thoughts
And with every gasp of air
I shout in my head “save me!”