I remember when I opened my eyes,
for first time in life,
your sun washed face was tensed.
I thought were worried for me
But your sadness didn't make sense.

I remember when I started walking
your shoulders were bent a bit
First, I thought it was for holding me from falling
But it was the burden, wasn't it.

I remember when you sent brother to school,
You asked me to help mom with plates
First, I thought that job was odd
But I should've understood that was my fate.

I remember when I played with my doll
& married her to other,
You also married me off.
First I thought you were playing with me
But you made me of him forever.

I remember when he bruised me
I remember when he abused me
I knew you could hear me from across the walls
Where I wept all day,
I thought you would take me away
& protect me from those blames
But unfortunately you never came.

I remember when I asked for help,
you never even tried.
In fact joy screamed through your silent eyes
The day your little girl died.