I think back to when it happened,
to that beautiful day that suddenly became so dark
The day when it all happened,
the day he destroyed who I was
Leaving me shattered.
I fought. I cried.
But it didn't matter how loud I was.
Nobody came to help me.
I still wake up crying,
Freeze when I see him,
And I’m still scared,
every damn day.
I still think I see him,
even while I'm safe at home.
I close my eyes and tell myself it’s going to be ok
But I can't help but feel him.
A year later I still feel him.
His grip on my wrists, the smell of alcohol on his breath,
The weight of his body pressed against me as I tried to get away
He just continued,as I cried.
It didn't matter how loud I screamed,
Nobody came to help me.