oh ****, well it happened again,
I let it run off of its leash
but let’s not pretend it hasn’t
already been wreaking havoc
for weeks on weeks on weeks
I’m only just admitting to it now

this **** habit coaxed out
like a snake to its charmer
by thoughts I can’t control
& the more the beast dances
the more it wants from me
& the faster the song must go

I’ll **** myself trying to keep up
**** this rhythm, **** this speed
this mad consumption is draining
the pathetic reserves of all I have
& it won’t be much longer before
the beast swallows me whole