first
you ignore your medication
to feel healthy
then
you break hearts
to make yours mend
soon
you smoke your cigars
to breathe easy
but not until after
you empty your stomach
to feel full
before you know it
you're slitting your skin
to patch yourself up
eventually
you kill yourself
to feel alive
and
you smile
to hide the sadness
that never goes away
self-destruction
is the only non-destructive thing I know
for it keeps me alive
while driving me insane