I'm in danger of ending up back where I started. Why are you so persuasive? I wish I could rewind sometimes, get back to the great start we had. I'm so sad I could weep. A little joy is what I need. Suffering is so 4 years ago. I wish I could change it all. Your tears have built me up. Made me strong enough to make a decision so precious yet small. Look at the monsters we've become. Wish I could change you, wish I could change myself. It's scary to think about all that. If I would try again, I would strengthen.