Dear future husband
I thought I knew who you were
Silly naïve me huh?
I thought I knew that your smile was the one I wanted to smile back at forever.
I thought that your arms were the ones that would pick me back up after every tumble in life.
I thought your soft brown hair would be the hair I ran my fingers through until I can’t.
I thought that I would get to stare into those deep brown eyes until I go blind from the brightness of your personality.
But instead
Your smile turned into a snarl and tore me apart
Your arms were the ones that pulled away from me if we ever disagreed on a topic crossing angrily in front of you.
Your soft luscious brown hair became off limits because you thought that I was too clingy.
Your deep brown eyes are now so full of hatred.
But instead
I didn’t blame you.
I blamed myself for every problem we ever had.
I blamed my clinginess for why your grades were slipping.
I blamed myself for the house being a mess from you sitting there all day.
I blamed myself for your car breaking down because I told you to go have fun.
I blamed myself for your anger because I am always to blame.
So instead
I broke.
And you threw those shards into the trash.