there is no denying
that this feeling i have is terrifying
every time i go blank
and
can't seem to think straight.

I am numb
and feel nothing.
will someone please
cut me
hang me
shoot me
break me
or at least make me feel something.

I can't smile,
or laugh,
or even speak.
the strong feelings that I once had
become weaker and seem bleak.

It's like I was someone else,
or a different side of me took over;
the side that likes to over think
and have my mind tell me lies
about myself.

the demons control me.
I don't seem to have a choice.
I want to speak out against them,
but every time it's like I lose my voice.