I despise this melancholy that gathers in a hot lump at the back of my throat, scorching my forehead burnt like violet. A spotted, brown bird spirals upward, until there is only shining. I ache to disappear in a grandmother's braids, wrapped up tight like infancy and shaken loose in the night, or to fall into the valley's sunset breeze climbing like summer dust towards immensity to paint brilliant the horizon.