No ****
There I was...
Still drunk from the night before
swaying and floating to the bathroom

the anticipation
the feeling of fire rising from my stomach
then
Sweet release
and again
Fire
Relief

The repetition
three or four days in a row now
seems so masochistic

but

its where I hide
Its where I am safe
Safe from feeling how I did with you

I figure if my head is pounding harder than my heart
I can drive you out
Cast you out
Keep you out

Water
Coffee
some eggs
aspirin  
on with the day

If it worked the first time
I don't think I would keep pouring fire into me

but as the day is fading
I need to be set ablaze

I will
keep you out
push you out
cast you out