i just remembered the day
you let me borrow
your R.E.M. cd
rip it onto
my ancient desktop
i think it was
thanksgiving
or something
the cd was
cold
and moisture
beaded on it
from the warmth
of our old yellow house
(love)
and i sat up there
for so long
in the office
that smelt like
burnt vacuum
thinking how much
that one boy i liked
who liked
R.E.M.
would like
the fact
that i had their cd
on my computer
i didn't really stop
and imagine
you listening to it
in your car
nightswimming
blaring
sweetly
i think i still have that
cd
somewhere...
i wish i had kept it
safe
somewhere...
if i had known
that some july
you'd be gone
forever
if i had known
that the day
you stopped us
in our car
on your
red motorcycle
and hugged me
told me
that you loved me
was the
last time
forever
i would have
lingered.