and he isolates himself again and she cries her eyes out in a crowd of friends and we buy it all just to keep ourselves comfortable and we lie to ourselves constantly because the truth hurts and if they fall we fall
what side are you on? are we playing the same game even? are we all double agents out in the open? are we all playing pretend or is some of this the real thing?
is it eerie how i hear you before you're even looking?
the best of us will be left performing magic tricks for the guys weilding the biggest sticks
stick to the plan get a tan and collect fans because you need to keep cool [sure] not in front of everyone no not ready for that no please no not while they're here they they need more time
you need more
you've had plenty
i've had enough
we all have
precisely my point
the point hasn't even begun to be reached
we're at it again
battling 'til surrender
remind me why
i can't breathe around her
her last wish kept me up all night
sir they're at it again we can't seem to stop them this time
we asked them to leave
i believe you please
grieve
the loss of many the loss of one man or any number
it's been keeping me up no slumber that's right every night i couldn't sleep feeling another one leave i made myself feel everything i could imagine happening all inside of me
have they forgotten what it feels like? have they robbed themselves of what they crave most because they couldn't handle the pain of knowing any longer?
and now i'm numb like you
still craving are meaning you seeming in playing love? dreaming? no for ever? lost never cost not most once? such maybe horrible every hosts time
never been shown the meaning never had it spelled out before letters in the sand holding hands no longer there
in circles we had drawn we sang our favorite made up songs it didn't matter that we didn't know the words everyone could play along
i wouldn't remember later but those songs reverberated 'round the walls of the crater
if i never see you in my dreams again it's just one more i'll keep drawing until i get it right one more silent vigil lit by fireflies
this morning ritual of mine is getting old i've bought and sold enough to trade my soul i've trained my soul for the day they take it all away and it won't matter 'cause it's not my game and i never wanted to play take me to the place you want me stake me out make sure it's nice enough outside a place where children play with paths for bikes to ride
you showed me in their faces you showed me and i'll never be the same
i'm falling again and i'm leaking for my own sake i'm speaking for no one in particular i'm making it up as i go along as i feel it every word feels wrong
but the sound of these the rhythm of my knees shaking the symbolism of an embolism makes me tremble maybe there's more to stem from
can you trace the outline on the wall? can you taste any of it at all? can you hear if he's still in there? can you tell if he has enough air? can you get ahold of him? how long's it been? don't look at me that way none of us ever expected this someone should have expected this is this serious? should we be calling someone? is there a problem? are we in trouble? don't you talk to anyone
the wrong mind in the wrong hands will be forced to make new plans wrong man sent to a new land will take ownership and make demands
stained sheet stars i lie beneath cars i almost died behind the steering wheel screaming out my rotting teeth dotting every line spotting every guy in the crowd in striped shirts every spy in every automobile behind every pile of rubble behind every "i'm sorry we're having a little trouble with the connection" "oh you didn't get my text? it must have been redirected..."